For How Long?

What I gifted them in loads,
They returned me in bits.
What I served them in gallons,
They satisfied me with drops.

When my bag was full,
I fed them sumptuous food.
But when I was hungry,
They got away,
With as little as they could.

They were harsh.
They were painful.
But gave me lessons for a lifetime.
Deep, authentic and mindful.

My love was like an ocean,


Vast and deep immeasurably.
But they found in it,
Mistakes and faults repeatedly.

I was judged for my honest and trustworthy nature.
Even among people with short stature.
My care was mistaken for dominance.
And straightforwardness for arrogance.

People continued being self-centred.
They are living and enjoying their lives with no regret.
They might lose me forever.
Unfortunately, they had no such threat.

Now, I have moved on too far.
My heart has etched on it a deep, painful scar.
It does not hope or wish for anything.
Expectations and hopes badly sting.

I have turned quieter now.
Lost in my own world of rediscovering myself.
I experiment, try and retry.
But stay away from humans, and hence, very little do my eyes cry.

Though I thank the Almighty in the heavens.

But the tough times taught me the best lessons.
How the ones I cared for turned out cold.
As their heart were of stone, not of gold.

My heart doesn’t break anymore.
As it’s pieces are all that I have in store.
Eyes don’t disperse tears now.
A silent plea appears in them still, somehow.

He has turned me into a bulletproof glass now.
His pains were meant to strengthen me somehow.
I am still under the bitter processes and trials of becoming strong,
My heart sobs at times, “Please, God, for how long?”

By Hema.

https://blogbyhema.com/2022/04/18/we-humans-love-challenges/

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4 thoughts on “For How Long?”

  1. A poem written by a heart ❤️ which has turned to stone yet very tender. Let the tenderness survive. Love you sis………🙏

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  2. Very painful poem, yet very beautiful one. Pain is felt inside. God bless you with happiness you deserve…. Love you my beautiful sissy….

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